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hi people. where u at gurl? (wth?) i’m here ~ back in my hometown, my kampung, enjoying the harvesting season while it lasts. the scent of fresh mud.. birds floating in the sky while stand still scarecrows keep them away. stupid birds..

today, for almost quite a long time before, i taste a deadly defeat. as i remembered, last time such event occurred was at mmu “stupid” gema 2003. my band was knocked out of its preliminary round. our first song was percayakan siti and still i can’t forget how stunned was the audience after we played that song. suddenly the bastard fcm lecturer whatever his name is, yelled at us to repeat the tune. wonder why? here was the situation.. we supposed to start second..

organizer    : “..the first band will play last. u guys first. we have no time. all   equipments are ready so just go in and start. go go go..“

we              : “errr.. okay..”

second mic was louder than for main vox, bass was amplified by a zero volume mic and the best part.. taraaa.. neither lead, rhythm nor bass guitar was in tune. still i admit, our quality that nite was bad. we crashed out, together with the next band after us. only after the second band, organizer postponed the session for some time, fixing all problems..

it’s not that after the day i have always been a winner. i lost some but all were undisruptive or maybe not focusing on me single-handedly. so repeating my sentence, today’s crush was lethal. people may comment that it was nothing, but for me it was a thing. i failed.. boys and girls, to all whom said before that i am perfect and have always waited eagerly for me to stumble, wait no more. see, just what i told u before. i am mortal ^_^

what else happened recently? owh.. my beloved bianconeri was thrown to serie b. now here is the stage to show how loyal our players are. several moved out. some more screaming infidelities too. get the hell out if so! we don’t need you. even if juventus will spend time at lower level leagues for the rest of my life, i won’t quit. black and white are my main soul of futbol. then only come selangor, man u, stuttgart, celta, strasbourg, vitesse and kickers. remember kickers? kakeru and his fellow teammates. cartoons were so irresistible that era. and suddenly now.. spongebob what? i mean, for little girls it’s fine. but when my 10 years old nephew described spongebob’s storyboard with passion, i can only expressed “alamak”! but anyway, be strong old lady.. even if the whole team vanish, u are always in my heart.. sob sob..

this is a hit from tupac amaru shakur. for me i have no string attached to its lyrics except for the line “but life goes on..”. a gangster proud of his wrongdoings.. huh! still your beat is catchy, g. have a wonderful life dear readers. daa~

How many brothers fell victim to the streets
Rest in peace young nigga, there’s a Heaven for a G
Be a lie, if I told ya that I never thought of death
My nigga, we the last ones left
But life goes on

As I bail through tha empty halls
Breath stinkin’ in my drawls
Ring, ring, ring, quiet y’all, incoming call
Plus this my homie from high school, he gettin by
It’s time to bury another brother, nobody cry
Life as a baller, alcohol and booty calls
We used to do them as adolecents, do you recall?
Raised as G’s, Loc’ed out and blazed the weed
Get on the roof let’s get smoked out and blaze with me
Two in the morning and we still high assed out
Screamin thug till I die before I passed out
But now that your gone, I’m in the zone
Thinkin I don’t wanna die all alone
But now ya gone and all I got left are stinkin’ memories
I love them niggas to death
I’m drinkin Hennessy
While tryin to make it last
I drank a fifth for that ass when you passed….
Cause life goes on

Chorus

Yeah nigga I got the word as hell
Ya blew trial and the judge gave you 25 with an L
Time to prepare to do fed time won’t see parole
Imagine life as a convict that’s getten’ old
Plus with the drama we’re lookin out for your baby’s mama
Taken risks, while keepin cheap tricks from gettin on her
Life in the hood is all good for nobody
Remember gamin on dumb hotties at chill parties
Me and you no true a two
While scheming on hits and gettin tricks
That maybe we can slide into
But now you burried
Rest nigga cause I ain’t worried
Eyes bluried, sayin goodbye at the cemetary
Though memories fade
I got your name tatted on my arm
So we both ball till my dyin days
Before I say goodbye
Kato and Mental rest in peace
Thug till I die

Chorus

Bury me smilin with G’s in my pocket
Have a party at my funeral, let every rapper rock it
Let the hoes that I used to know
From way before
Kiss me from my head to my toe
Give me a paper and pen
So I can write about my life of sin
A couple bottles of gin incase I don’t get in
Tell all my people I’m a Ridah
Nobody cries when we die
We outlaws let me ride
Until I get free
I live my life in the fast lane got police chasin me
To my niggas from old blocks from old crews
Niggas that guided me through back in the old school
Pour out some liquor have a toast for the homies
See we both gotta die but you chose to go before me
And brothers miss you while your gone
You left your nigga on his own, how long we mourn
Life goes on

Sung over Chorus

Life goes on homie
Gone on, cause they passed away
Niggas doin life
Niggas doin 50 and 60 years and shit
I feel ya nigga, trust me, I feel ya
You know what I mean
Last year
We poured out liquor for you
This year nigga, life goes on
We’re gonna clock now
Get money, evade bitches, evade tricks
Give players plenty space
And basicaly just represent for you baby
Next time you see your niggas
Your gonna be on top nigga
They gonna be like
Goddamn, them niggas came up
That’s right baby
Life goes on
And we up out this bitch
Hey Kato, Mental
Y’all niggas make sure it’s poppin when we get up there
Don’t front